Posted @ Sunday, September 27, 2009

Since i'm fcuking bored right now. so i plan to blog. A long post ba :DHasnt in a good mood as i fail my prelim until veri jialat. Sometimes i wondering that is it i make the wrong choice to go to sec 5?Reall veri scared that in the end, i will end up to ITE.Really veri fcuk up when i see my result. Still haven gotten back all the paper but guess is stil the same ba. The most scary thing is that i dint expect myself to fail until so jialat sia. i thought is just fail just fail but some of them is F9 sia. English veri impt, but i fail until veri jialat. If i fail my english, i wasnt able to enter poly loh.can i score well if i start fcuking hard now to study? sigh, left 27 days ba i guess. i really feel so upset now. i really need to work very very very hard now le. From now onwards, i will study 2hrs everyday if possible. dont always go out slack and all those shit le. NO MOREMY FAVOURITE DRAMA LE D:From now, i gonna put all other things behind my back and onli concentrate on study, Let all those childish thing slowly fade off. i dont want to waste time tinking those nonesense and things that will not come true in reality.
Seriously, there are many thing bothering mii. I dont know what to do. Ya, relax and stay calm to overcome those problem. but to mii, i cant do that. Whenever i'm free, i will start to think all the rubbish. Really is a waste of my time. but sometimes, thinking all those thing make mii understand something right. Actually sometimes, when i'm bored, many thing come through my mind. i think of everything, my family friends and blahblahblah. But from now, nothing is gonna stop mii for doing the thing that i like. Really thanks to those ppl around mii that can listen to what i'm sad of and what really bothering mii :DThanks I promise that i will not think so much anymore cause i know there are still many impt things i need to solve. Gonnna change myself to a better person :D
i know i'm bad to say this but i've enough of everything. i feel so fcuk up sometimes. uu just dont understand mii. i dont know is you dont want to face the facts or uu act one stupid and dont know! i dont know i can still take it how long bt can uu do something sensible/right?Actually uu can tell mii so that i wont be so foolish to keep thinking on all those childish thing and feel so confident. But, now. let mii tell uu. i GONNA GIVEUP ON YOU ALREADY CAUSE I'm someone that want it for long term. not just fooling around. I can have fun with uu but all those nonesense that uu are giving mii let mii know that u dont even deserve to be my friend. dont worry. We will look good but in facts I HATE YOU. NOW, i dont even know who m i. but whenever i think of it, i will feel down. This affect my emotion and affect the ppl around mii. uu are the main course. So i know i'm mean. but sorry, just fcuk off lah hor! Just give mii two weeks time to tink probably wat i want. But hopefully, all things goes smoothly. i dont want to lose you but there are many thing .... sigh. I will still act normal when i see you. If uu are smart, uu shld know i'm refering to you :DNot gonna say out the name :D is quite personal thingy but i just cant stand already.
What a fcuking long post sia,Wth.

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